1. Dear Dad

    Dear Dad,
    Is this how you pictured it would be?  Is this the relationship you always wanted to have with me? Despite everything you’ve done I’M the one still trying to fix things.   I’ve been trying my whole life to make this work between us, and all you do is spit in my face, kick me when I’m down and tell me I’m nothing.  Why do I keep trying?  I don’t know.  I do know, I shouldn’t be the only one.  
    Dear Dad, 
    Remember when I was eight and I heard my little brother shouting “please stop”?  Remember? The time you held him off the ground, and pinned him to the wall?  You were screaming, and so was he.  Remember how I had to pull you away, and then you took your aggression out on me?  I do. 
    Dear Dad, 
    Remember the time we had to hide from you?  I do.  Mom was crying, my little brother afraid.  Stomping across the house, slamming things, yelling things, breaking things.  It seemed it would never stop.  I guess it never truly did.  
    Dear Dad, 
    I believe I’m nothing.  Is this the lesson you want me to learn?  
    Dear Dad, 
    It’s Christmas.  You’ve chased me through your brothers house, shoved me, cornered me, screamed at me, and threatened me.  My little cousin saw you.  She was terrified, and so was I.  Merry Christmas. 
    Dear Dad, 
    These are just examples, the rest would fill a novel.  
    Dear Dad, 
    I’m 21 now and I don’t know what to do.  I’ve wasted my life thus far just trying to win your approval.   I can’t do this anymore.  It’s too hot then too cold; it’s too expectedly unpredictable. 
    Dear Dad, 
    I think I’m done. 
     
  2. plasmatics-life:

    The Devil’s Tooth | (by Jon Wright)

    Beautiful. 

    (via fuckyouimagentleman)

     
  3. I always fight going to sleep, but once I finally lie down and get in bed I never want to leave. :) #bed #cozy #me #myself #sleep #sleepy #eyes #comfy #happy

     
  4. Blah. Bored. :) 

     
  5. Digital Painting
    Sara Feehan.2014

     
  6. tbotofficial:

    I GOT SCARED FOR A SECOND, BUT THEN awwwww

    (Source: ForGIFs.com, via the-absolute-best-gifs)

     
  7. Self Portrait/Digital Painting/Doodle
    Sara Feehan.2014

     

  8. Love this song. 

     
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  10. "You have this one life. How do you wanna spend it? Apologizing? Regretting? Questioning? Hating yourself? Dieting? Running after people who don’t see you? Be brave. Believe in yourself. Do what feels good. Take risks. You have this one life. Make yourself proud."
     
  11. lmao

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  12. In such a ridiculously good mood!

    I don’t know what’s going on, but it’s like as soon as I registered for my Special Effects and Prosthetic Makeup program, everything has just clicked! It feels amazing.  After being sick for so many months, and being so unproductive and lethargic, I have all this new found energy and excitement.  I feel the most like myself that I have in nearly two years.  It feels amazing.  I’m so happy. 

     
  13. Blah. 

     
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  15. Benson and I, he’s a cuddle bug.